“For we do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, of our trouble which came to us in Asia: that we were burdened beyond measure, above strength, so that we despaired even of life.” 2 Corinthians 1:8
Those of us who are grieving the death of a close loved one know the feeling that Paul felt when he said he despaired even of life. Have you felt like that yet? Have you felt like life wasn’t worth living? Have you felt like giving up? So have I. Trauma, or a crisis, or circumstances beyond our ability to cope are magnified in grief. That is why some want to run away or hide or even end their life. They are seeking relief from the pain and the sorrow.
While it is natural for us to want to escape, to survive and be happy again means we must learn how to endure. While we are looking for a way out, God is wanting to help us find a way through our grief. One thing every grieving person must do is embrace their own fear and sorrow and pain. We do this in honest prayer. God already knows, so it is for our benefit that we talk things out with Him.
Paul was so distressed that he felt like death was the only way out. But instead he says that in the midst of his situation he learned not to trust his own wisdom and strength, but to trust in God’s ability to even raise the dead.
My experience has taught me not to trust in my own ability but to trust in a loving and powerful Heavenly Father who can apply His grace to my need.
“Who delivered us from so great a death, and does deliver us; in whom we trust that He will still deliver us.” 2 Corinthians 1:10